Incantations

Ok, so I discussed my new incantations yesterday - i.e. positive, affirming beliefs said with as great an emotional intensity as possible (bearing in mind who'll hear you!) See yesterday's post on Motivation to Change if you missed it. I said I would post the detail at some point, so here it is...

Beliefs/ uncertainties that were keeping me from pursuing change whole-heartedly:
1. I might not be able to put in all the right effort etc to change, even if it is possible.
2. There could be something in homosexuality that I am missing out on - some degree of fulfillment that I couldn't find in heterosexuality.
3. Maybe I am just gay!
4. I don't fit in with other men - I'm not one of the lads.
5. Maybe people are just born gay afterall. Has anyone really changed?
6. I can't do this on my own - I long for comfort and strength from another man.

These beliefs were pulling me back - I didn't really verbalise them, but due to all the information given to me by the culture and society around me, these doubts arose. They weren't core beliefs, but they lingered to challenge my true beliefs.

My Incantations (the counter-beliefs to those above that motivate me to change):
1. I have the strength, ability, faith and commitment to make a complete change in this area of my life.
2. There is so much more fulfillment for me in heterosexuality that I have ever found or ever could find in the pain-driven, momentary pleasure of homosexuality.
3. I am heterosexual - the outworkings of this heterosexuality have been buried but are now rising up. I call them forth now in complete fullness.
4. I am a man among men; they are my friends, comrades, workmates, competitors, brothers. I belong with them and am fully welcome and accepted in their company.
5. Homosexuality is principally the result of psychological trauma and as such is inherently susceptible to be changed. Many have experienced a complete change. I will experience this complete change too/ I am experiencing this complete change now. (this alternate ending claims it as a reality for my subconscious)
6. God is my rock. My source of strength and place of comfort in my battle with homosexuality and in all my battles. With Him I will walk into the victory He has already won.

A couple of points to note - the majority of today's culture affirms the first set of beliefs above. Even some of my best friends who know my struggle believe these beliefs. Few people question cultural beliefs thinking if most people believe it then it must be true. Well, all I can say is, Do some research and think for yourself!! The second set of beliefs are firm statements that through research and my life experience and analysis I rationally believe, but the first set of beliefs challenges these in my subconscious. The purpose of the incantations is to affirm daily the beliefs I want to live my life by, and to coax the subconscious to let go of the cultural bias it has taken in by osmosis - well... hopefully you catch my point:)